AGITATIONS !!!

Suddenly you go to the seashore. You find it is a low tide. The sea is calm and quiet.

Just few hours back there were these waves. Making sound. Moving with lot of energy.

Yes for the last three days there was this agitated mind. With lots of thoughts of depression and fear.

Yes was knowing it, that this is a changing phenomena . Yes i knew that in a short time , may be in few hours or few days this agitation will go away. Yes i had the memories of such occasions in the past.

Yes i had the knowledge that these are the thoughts emerging due to the stored Vasanas.

Yes i could sense the Kundalini energy going up and down.

But just could not keep away the thoughts of depression and fear.

It is generally said in sermons to avoid certain kind of thoughts and to indulge in certain other kinds of thoughts. But here was a situation when it was impossible to shift from those thoughts. Even though i was knowing that i am not these thoughts. I am that. Yes i know i am that. But at that time i was deeply , deeply drowned in the sea of thoughts of depression and fear.

And it was also difficult to come to the state of transcended mind.

What was needed was the centring of the mind.

Tried to look within at the heart chakra, where the shiva lingam is established.

This looking within would give me some relief.

That was last night.

May be that worked. But i am not sure.

And what happened today morning , when i woke up from my sleep, was which i knew would happen.

I was silent within. The agitation of the mind and those thoughts were missing.

There was this tranquillity of the mind.

Just one glance and i was in that transcendent state.

Yes i am that.

Yes this is not one time phenomena. This has happened many times.

Initially i wouldn’t know what it is.

Later as i progressed and reached the state of transcended mind , i came to know thru my inner guru that these are vasanas which are being energised.

Also read in Geeta about it , somewhere in 14^th chapter or so.

But surely at this stage it is just killing.

Specially once when i have tasted that state of transcended mind.

I do not know, what is the future. But at this stage looking out for an external help , through a guru who has established himself in the knowledge of kundalini science.

Abundance

Affirmation : I AM thankful for the limitless, overflowing Source of my abundance.

A Drop of water sees the Sea and thinks of the above affirmation.

It desires to become bigger.

Soon a CUP full of water flows towards the drop of water.

The Drop becomes very happy upon gaining the size.

But this happiness does not last long as it sees the Sea again.

It remembers the affirmation taught to it.

Again it desires to become big.

The water from the Sea flows towards it again.

It grows bigger in size. Becomes the size of the GLASS.

Soon after another desire, another affirmation, size increases.

Becomes a BUCKET.

This goes on and on.

It is never satisfied.

The happiness it gets is short timed.

It gets tired.

Instead of desiring to get bigger had it got merged with the SEA.

It would have become the ABUNDANCE itself.

Now choice is mine to look at the abundance or to merge with it.

VASANAS - UNRESOLVED ISSUES

Vasanas are the impressions of the unfulfilled desires of the past.

You may call it unresolved issues of the past.

Each one of us takes the body to resolve these issues or clear the Vasanas.

Vasanas produce thoughts. Thoughts crate the desire in us to act.

Thus when we act, we clear out the old Vasanas. As soon as we clear one vasana, another thought comes and we act again.

Thus we keep getting the thoughts, and keep doing the things and thus we clear out the Vasanas.

When all our Vasanas are cleared there would be no need to take another body.

To clear all the Vasanas , which are accumulated over the many births, which we have taken we will have to come into many more bodies depending upon the number of Vasanas we have in us.

All above is true only if we do not add more Vasanas.

Hence the need to live in such a way that 1. We clear old Vasanas and 2. We do not add more Vasanas.

Vasanas are created when we have desires which are not fulfilled.

Vasanas are also created when we live in a dualistic world. When the factor I and you come into picture.

When we live and work with the notion I,me and myself ,we have to take the fruits of actions done by us.

The fruit may be good because of a good deed or bad one because of a bad deed.

Since we work with the notion I, me and myself ,the fruit of action will also be mine.

So when we live in the world and act in the world, with adwaita ( not two ) state of mind, the fruit of actions will not be ours. There will be no Vasanas created, at the same time old Vasanas will be exhausted.

Vasanas can also be cleared by looking at the thoughts.

Vasanas are stored in seven chakras in the body.

Kundalini energy ( Maa Shakti) which is stored at the base of spinal cord gives energy to these Vasanas and they rise as thoughts.

When we look at the thoughts, they get exhausted there and then. We need not get them converted into desires and actions and subsequently fruits of action.

Mere looking at the thoughts is enough to get them exhausted.

Due to the Vasanas we have taken a body. These Vasanas and thoughts give us an identity.

Throughout our life we live with this identity. And consider our body as myself.

Body is because of Vasanas to be cleared in this birth. Vasanas are impressions of the previous births.

Both the Vasanas and body are additions to me. They keep on accumulating and adding.

Therefore I am and I was much before these Vasanas were added and this body got form due these Vasanas.

I was there when Vasanas were added am here now when Vasanas are being exhausted and new ones are being added. Will be there when either there will be no more Vasanas to cleared or some are left to be cleared.

We suffer pain because some fruits are not in good taste, or we are happy because the fruits are tasty.

But basically these fruits are due to actions-desires-thoughts-Vasanas.

Hence the whole game is to have no Vasanas.

Vasanas act like a wall between us and permanent happiness.

We have to remove this wall brick by brick, so that we attain the state of permanent happiness.

Vasanas are within our bodies in the chakras. We have taken this body depending upon these Vasanas. Our thoughts and desires are due to these Vasanas. The fruits which we get are due to our actions. Hence our happiness and unhappiness ultimately depends on our own Vasanas.

There is no external factor which is responsible for our state of affairs.

We get external environment which is suitable to clear our Vasanas.

So if we are caught up in traffic jam, understand that it is our own Vasanas which has created it. Accept it to exhaust it.

Looking at the thoughts gives us the ability to create a distance between me and the thoughts.

This distance breaks the identity which till now we have with our thoughts.

Upon breaking of this identity with the body the I vanishes. And as soon as I vanish, you automatically vanishes.

Because the basis of you is me.

Thus duality ends.

What remains is I I I everywhere.

PRAYER

Prayer indicates DWAITA ( TWONESS )
Praying means the ego is still alive.
It means there is still a desire left to be fulfilled,to become complete.
It is not a complete acceptance.
In ADWAITA ( NOT TWO ) there is only ONE. so who prays to whom ?

SUPER SILENCE

It is a super silence THERE . The pin drop silence is known. But THERE even the air sound can be heard. So one can term it as Air Drop silence. And in that silence the conciousness speaks to one,giving inputs 24x7. And these inputs are known as intutions.The thoughts break that silence.With the breaking of the silence the inputs/intutions are also lost. Once known THAT silence it is hard to go away from THERE. Every thought that breaks that silence gives pain.It is as if being taken away from your beloved.

RELAX

Anything new can be created only when one is totally RELAXED.

THE FILM

If we have seen the film reel , it consists of pictures. When these pictures are moved at a speed, an illusion is created and we see the characters moving. Similarly what we are observing in the outside world is nothing but pictures which are moving at a very high speed which gives us the illusion of the world .At any given time the world outside is nothing but a photo or picure.We used to play a game STATUE when we were children. In this game when a person says STATUE ,the other person maintains his position without moving and becomes a statue.Suppose now I say to the world oustside STATUE . The whole world would freeze and becomes a statue.This freezed frame is one picture.These pictures move at a very high feed.They give us the illusion of the worldmoving . The pictures which have already moved, they become our past.Those which are yet to come, they become our future.The pictures which have become past will never come back. The pictures which are yet to be freezed are not there and hence we can not see. What we see is the picture which has been freezed just now.We only have to learn to tune ourselves to this freezed frame. Thus when I am tuned to this freezed frame as per theory of relativety neither there are pictures which have gone past nor there are frames which are yet to come. I am always in the present. Thus neither the world moves past me nor do I grow old. I am in the NOW always, enjoying each and every frame as it is. I also see myself in each and every freezed frame, growing from being a child to being a father of two grown up children. I as an observer of each freezed frame remain the same. Ever tuned to the present.